You Lost My Funding. Seriously?

Ah, life’s glorious adventures! The twists and turns are sometimes like white water rafting. This is how yesterday started out. A phone call from the Vice President of the sector that I work under for my current contract.

Let’s rewind a bit. Let’s go back in time and relive the events that lead up to this earth shattering moment in my Tuesday. As Dane Cook would say, “Let’s Tarantino it.” Actually I just want to share a few points.

I belong to a home group (bible study, small group, whatever you want to call it). Basically we (a group of families and friends) get together and study the bible, eat, talk and build relationships… it’s fun. Anyway we’ve been studying the book of Colossians for a while now and this past Tuesday (May 15) one particular verse stood out to me. I couldn’t understand why really. It’s not a verse that I would have thought that I needed work on, certainly in light of some of the other surrounding verses. For some reason this one verse just kept coming back to my mind. What? Oh you want the verse? OK.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.

Colossians 3:15 (New International Version)

Now the focus of my attention was on Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts. Well with the verse written on a piece of paper, folded neatly and tucked into my bible we finished up and headed home.

Have any of you ever prayed for patience? DON’T! That is unless you are completely prepared for the testing and training that is about to come… nay flood your way to teach you that patience. Same principle here. Everything the following week just went wrong… fighting, bickering, terrible attitude… and that’s just me in the room by myself. The peace of Christ definitely was not ruling in my heart. It was more like the anger mongering of Satan. Just ask Aubrey; she’ll be more than happy to let the cat out of the bag. If not then I will. I was an absolute turd this past week.

Of course there have been some more stressful things in our lives of late which I attributed this all too. Plus I can always blame it on the medications I take for my migraines. But of course those are just all excuses.

So I get the call and he tells me there is no more funding and they cannot seem to find any more sources of funding to continue my position. Great. June 1st you say? Great. Hey, Stuart Little’s dad always said you have to look for the silver lining. Well, I don’t have to clean out my desk!

After getting off the phone I thought about how crumby it was to leave me with one week to find a replacement for that income source. Of course I know other people that have been left with less time than that. Then I thought… if I had read the writing on that piece of paper a little deeper the preceding Tuesday I might have had two weeks notice. Of course that’s really reaching, but my point is that God always knows what’s coming up in our lives. He knew last Tuesday that I’d get that call and so He knew that I needed a reminder that His peace could sustain me through this time. God is good.

One of the things that’s tough about trusting God is that He doesn’t tell you what’s coming up… that’s the faith part. Also if He did tell you then you could in theory tell the future and start placing bets on races and that’d be a big ole mess now wouldn’t it? Sorry; I digress.

You know the movie Indian Jones and the Last Crusade? At the end of the movie when they’re all inside the cave and Indiana has gone on ahead of everyone to get the grail in order to save his father he comes to a huge bottomless chasm. It is too far to jump to the other side and the only clue he has is Only in a leap from the lion’s head will he prove his worth. That’s a little how I feel right now. Like I’m standing out on the edge of a bottomless chasm trying to trust that God knows what He is doing and that He will provide for my family, but a wee teensey weensey bit scared too.

I’ve already had numerous friends and family pray with me and Aubrey about this. If you are the praying type and would find it in your hearts to pray for us it would be greatly appreciated. If you are the hiring type and need a great software engineer then leave a comment and make sure your email is correct (won’t be in the comment) and I’ll surely give you a quick response. 🙂 Thank you for taking the time to stop by.